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Friday, August 19th, 2005
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12:39 pm
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| Sunday, May 6th, 2001
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6:29 pm
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Ok, i'm done with live journal now. i wont check your journals. you dont check my journals. and we all have a happy day.
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6:15 pm
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Ehhh.... errr........ OK, so me being upset about friday night is apparently unwarrented, and yeah i probably shouldnt be. I mean i always go about making people feel like shit i should TOTALLY not expect them to want to be near me. i dont know what i was thinking, but saturday matt and i got up early. ended up in bremerton met up with ehh.. EVERYONE and we ran around doing stupid shit. i got a new wave jacket that is fucking rad. THANK YOU cora you are my hero. she paeyd for most of it. ehhh.. i also stole her glasses :) ok yeah. we ended up sleeping at angies. ehhh.. wentt o church.. wasnt so bad. only pissed me off a bit, fucking patriarchal bullshit. anyway.. yeah. went home. patton stole a 47 Dollar bondage belt. woo. hm. ok. done.
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| Saturday, May 5th, 2001
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12:58 am
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i have a really yicky feeling in my stomache..........
tomorrow should be decent.. if i dont be all yicky like i am tonight.
Matt and i are going to bremerton to hook up with Alex Patton Angie Andrew Shannon and ms. Cora. i dont think alex and patton know we are coming. hahahah, that shall be amusing.
I feel like shit. again i can count a cycle with a certain girl that makes me laugh. people talk about how things change through the years i understand. but situations in my life change within 4-5 days.. its pretty sickening.
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| Friday, May 4th, 2001
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7:09 pm
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hm.. well something almost good happened.
Matt came over, and we've been fucking around for the last couple of hours, ya know whatever.
Kayla pops online and asks if we want to go bowling, matt and i decide this is a good idea.
Kayla mentions alithea is with them. matt and i still decide we are ok with this, tho less excited than before, we decided that ya know. we can be pleasant and deal with things.
Kayla goes to ask alithea if we can go. she says it would be too weird.
i'm sad.. ....really sad.... like tears forming in jeffs eyes hasnt happened... in years.. yeah..
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5:39 pm
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ok, my computer was an asshole. so i reformatted. so if you love me, contact me at Fairy V rage. otherwise i understand.
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12:23 pm
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right now it would be really great to be able to stop everything and remove from my life the things that i really dont need. and bring closer to me the things i do.
I suppose it would be nice to be able to tell people that i really dont need them. and all they do is make things worse. or to be able to tell people to cool off.
my life is composed of 2 week cycles. two weeks from now i will be living a completely differant life. i was living a completely differant life 2 weeks before that. there is no constant. my brother and i were talking about how to him 10 years is nothing i was like "10 years ago you were 14" he said "that seems like yesterday" and i was thinking that i cant even remember how i felt a week ago.
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10:52 am
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| Thursday, May 3rd, 2001
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11:01 pm
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oh fuck.... i have no idea whats going on... i'm going to backtrack today... i cant remember what happened this morning..... i just beat steve and henry in risk. i had north america on the first turn. ehh.. before that... ehh... bo henry steve and i played scrabble. bo won i got secondp lace. ehhh.. yeah i went to the store at some point and bought some gluten, tomorrow i'll make an ass load of seitan. ehhh.. before that.. ehh.. bo and i went looking for a car.. we found a pretty nice VW.. but yeah its a VW.. hm... i dont know how good foxes are but the dash lights fucking rule. anyway.. i guess that was after bo picked me up from the house.. wep layed magic before he stole me.... but this morning right after i woke up i talked to sage. that was good. i enjoy doing that. i assume she has to come up this weekend, her movies are still here. I really enjoy how nothign is weird between sage and i and there are no crazy tensions and i have no worries about her doing something that she's been known to do.. probably because she's not 'known' to do anything.. hm... so yeah... i woke up and didnt go to school. lame on me. ok yeah thats enough. thats my day.. backwards.
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| Wednesday, May 2nd, 2001
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6:02 pm
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ooooooooooooooooooh lets see. school was pretty unproductive. sage was like 20 minutes late, which is fine. its not like the tmie before last when she neglected to show or something. we cleaned my room sort of. its a tad better now. i dont know. hmm... patton bo and matt were over so we watched like ehh.. little nicky or somethign with was pretty insane and then started ninja scroll but bo and matt had to go home in the middle of it so only like sage and i were paying attention.. patton doesnt like sub titles.. so yeah we just screwed around and wasted time till like 10:30 then we went to the store, i had two bucks so i bought tofu and mushrooms. patton walked out with a half case of squirt. we went over to alex's stole him away.... ehhh... went to my house again, watched hard target.. van dam can NOT play a cajun fella.. it doesnt work. anyway.. ehhh... they started in on the "punk" movie or somethign but alex had to go home and patton forgot to tell his mom he was staying here so sage took him home too. and then like.. ehhh... so sage came back and we slept.. we got up. i put my tofu and mushrooms to use and made food and then we jetted off to matt's (boy with car) house. and toook him to kaylas school were we snagged kayla and i was nice enough to hang out with her in detention for 10 minutes while sage and matt went somewhere else or something. they went to some burget joint and got lots of food that i dont eat.. took matt to his friends house to go do something and then went to kayla's house. picked up a good fella's and came back to my house to watch it.. it was good fun.. yeah my brother showed up.. i think he's living here now. i can never tell.. sage and kayla went home.. and now i have to do a TON of history and take 5 tests tomorrow.. wehaw!
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| Tuesday, May 1st, 2001
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9:55 am - Hyper ColorTells me where my Baby is Hot.
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i woke up and felt chipper this morning.
i dont want to go to school.
i just want sage to be here and yeah.
if anything really good came out of the alithea 'saga' it was definately sage.
and as much as probably dislikes the fact she has lots of really great people around her.
hopefully the "Saga" part of the alithea saga will soon come to an end.
as everything still feels very awkward and strange.
I can't be like before.
Today will make me happy.
Alithea wanted to come.
She asked sage, sage basicly said no, and alithea explained why.
the sad part is she's right.
if alithea is here with sage.
bo wont come.
patton wont come.
sage will feel wierd with alithea and alex together.
and then the good time would be less good.
that makes me sad.
i wish alithea could do what she needs to do for her not to make every situation uncomfortable.
i dont like telling friends no they cant hang out with me.
its bad.
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| Monday, April 30th, 2001
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10:20 pm
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| Sunday, April 29th, 2001
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7:33 pm - Its really quite manic
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oh the world we live in.
hmm... i dont know.. today was decently boring.. after going out for breakfast just sat around on my butt.
Mark my words please believe my soul lives on
Please don't worry now that I have gone
I've gone beyond to see the truth
Sage is coming up Tuesday.. i should totally figure out something to "do" for when she comes up.. plans are neato...
Alithea is coming up tomorrow..we are going to ehh.. "talk" i really dont have the bestest feeling about all of this.. i suppose we'll see.
Tonight.. i ehh.. shower... yup thats my plans for tonight.... maybe stay up real late just so i dont have too much time to kill before going to harass alithea.
someone give me something to do... i'll repay you in anyway.
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12:25 pm
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hmm.... ok, well at like 2 or something kayla tried talking to me on aim. and apparently leslie's house (whereshe was at) had no parent like people. soooooo we went over ther.e. ehm.. kara. katie, kayla and leslie were all there.. it was amusing.... hmm.. yeah.. nothing much interesting. this morning we went to breakfast.. ehh.. yeah.... was something to do...
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12:29 am
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hmmm.. well that was a blast.... yeah i suck at drumming, but i really had fun playing the grape songs with alex drumming. oh god that ruled.. i think i was "rocking out" too hard.. i like got a fucking burn on my arm from hitting pattons stupid ass guitar..... hmm... yeah.. all in all a good time, mike felt like going home so sage and mike bo and i all drove back tonight... so all the boys and girls have their counterparts up there.. gee there will be lots of lovin' tonight... hm... yup.... no lovin' for bo and i... hm.. lameage.
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| Saturday, April 28th, 2001
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10:50 am
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in reply to:
"Hey.. i was stuck in Quilcene for your show last weekend, but i was at Club
Impact this Thursday and there was a LOT of buzz about what went down Saturday..
from what i hear its very brave and commendable. i couldnt really get a straight
answer on what went down tho. people were saying you were talking against rock
for life and shooting pro choice messages. but with the rfl kids its the whole
"if your not for us your against us" bit going on. so i dont know to how much
truth can be held to any assumptions they make, SO i was trying to get possibly
a straight answer, and of course to commend your courage.
Turn the Other Cheek? Get Another Slap.
+ Ragin' + P?Nee + "
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Hello;
This is crazy, what people are saying about our RFL views. Firstly, nobody
talked to me about what I said from the stage after the show, and nobody has
asked me since, which means people are assuming our views without asking.
Thats insane. What I said from the stage between songs was something to
this affect: "I'm all for Pro-Life, but lets listen to the other side
too...if we're going to save all these babies lives, lets make sure that
we're going to take care of them." What I mean by that is this: Its great
to save these lives, but lets balance that with some level of social
conciousness; we need to get some social programs in place to take care of
an increasing amount of orphans and encourage people to start adopting. Its
okay to support traditionally Right Wing causes, but lets listen to other
people; they're not dumb. These lives are worth saving, but then what?
There will need to be an equal level of activism from ProLifers to support
these babies they helped save. Thats all I meant.
CAN YOU PLEASE FORWARD THIS E-MAIL, OR PRINT IT OFF and share it with those
who are confused about our views on this subject. I AM PRO-LIFE, and I
figured that would be clear because we drove for three hours to play this
show. If you are reading this and were at all offended or concerned by my
remarks, I would be happy to further explain myself and my views. Email me
at the_man_in_black@hotmail.com or call my cell phone at (604) 802-9292.
Thank you for writing me and asking what I said and what I meant. Hope that
helps.
Jordan
The Status
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| Friday, April 27th, 2001
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9:21 pm - anyone think i talk about death too much?
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i've found recently that i've judged my days on whether or n ot it woudl be a good day to die..... like... i'll be waiting to cross the street and at complete random i'll think "hm... shoudl i jump in front of that car?" i usualy dont.... i usualy end up saying that things are pretty ok fornow.. andreally its not fair to commit suicide without leaving some sort of point behind.. but i dont know.. like all day today i've felt like crying.. just from being really lonely and yicky... the same basic feeling that has over shadowed my existance until now.. always 2nd best.. if even that... never does anythinge ver go in my favor, never has anything that felt right lasted long enough for me to blink. today has just been a depressing day.... someone please tell me how good of a day they had?
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2:19 pm - turn the other cheek....... get another slap.
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hmm... Sage is off making herself pretty for Mr. Mikee. i'm not really sure what i'm doing i just have to like take a bus home at some point or something. this keyboard is really squeeky its quite annoying, but its better than mine which is sticky.......... from food...........
i dont really know what i'm doing right now i'm just kinda bored... ehh... yeah.... seeing mike shall be amusing... he's neato cool... i think shakespear wrote the 60's.. like the whole decade... it was his idea.. its like all of these great events and uprisings to end in an almost tragedy to come to a luke warm ending.. it just leaves an uneasy feeling. hmm.... i want victory or something. but i dont want to be victorious...... lameness.. life sucks.. everything right now is one big ugly down note... i have a feeling something relaly bad is coming... it sucks.... I like to pretend i'll have some sort of play in what is coming. but i'm detatched and lame.. nothing will happen. except maybe i'll be one of the kids who kid who get hit in the back of the head with a club as the police rush the line.. and die on the pavement.. never to see the outcome of the revolution. hell i wont even make it that far. my bus will crash on the way to the capitol, i wont get the glory of dying in battle..... fuck..... bah.
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9:01 am
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ehhhh... its early... but ehmmm..... uhhhh..what the fuck... ok...
So sage was supposed to drive up yesterday... and then she couldnt. well she couldnt get her moms car or something. so she said fuck it and drove her car up... which everyone loves.. like everyone at the showl astnight was begging her to drive it. yeah so we hung out here for a while, justgetting plans straight and what not and then jetted over to pattons house,i showed him howto use rebirth more effectively and he did the samefor me.. oh the sharing of knowlage. anyway. we went to the shitty show lastnight, inever even bothered sneaking in, i justhung out outside.. talked to sage lots.... hmm.. yeah.... she's one of the few people left i dont feel some weird tension with.... hmmm... ehhhh... nothing elsereally happened. oh wait, we went to alex's and killed time, he seemed more chipper than the last time we went by.. being as how then he was bitter. so yeah, then nothing else happened. just got to myhouse and slept.. woo... sooooooooooooooooooooo.......... yeah i've no interesting anything to spit at the end of this, so i shall shut up now and possibly go back to sleep.
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| Wednesday, April 25th, 2001
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8:43 pm - you're not a hero unless you die
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hm... i'm really fucking bored,i just took a shower, practice makes me smelly so i figure i could fix it, i'm really typing fast right now its bizaare, i'm going faster t han my brain, woo yeah, anyway.. ehhh.... death... ehmm.. no no death today.. i was really dissapointed to find the world still here when i woke up, it could totally just go to dust and i'd be ok with it, hm.. yeah.. i dont know what i'm doing.. i'm just sitting here wondering what is going on tomorrow..sage said she wanted to visit me or something.. yeah.. lame.. sage not lame.. me lame.. i have no idea why people wnat to visit me... hm.. maybe .. no cant be that. i'm lame and smelly.. and my house has no food.. maybe..erg i dont know.. i dotn like when people amaze me with how shallow they can be.. istlike a totall shock and quite depressing..and to have felt like a part of that at one time is even worse. hm.. ohwell.. life goes on and people dance. well sageis coming up tomorrow that be reason not to be sad... ok yeah....today was one thing not working out afteranother.. this last month has been near that... hmmm... fuck me...death.
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